When I first

It has been a while, I hope you are all well. I was supposed to post a poem last month, so here I am, late to the party. This specific poem is to my beloved Billy. If you find some confusing parts, that is why.

To the one with dark hair,

To the one who makes me laugh,

To the one whom is always near,

To the one whom I call my other half.

When I first heard your sound,

When you first read my bubble,

When I first realized your cloud,

When I first heard your giggle.

To the one with the smoothest touch,

To the one whom makes my name ring,

To the one whom always did not mind much,

To the one whom loves to sing.

When I first opened the last separated door,

When I first wrapped my arms around you,

When I finally was able to be more,

It was then that I have decided to never leave your side for any excuse.

To the one whom I call home,

To the one whom I love the most,

I am no longer alone,

At last I can promise myself and all of my future ghosts.



What Happened To Me

Hello everyone.

I know. You are all asking who is this chick!

I promise that I’m still here and breathing. I sincerely apologize that I have been gone from the face of the earth for so long.

Almost a year ago, this very writing platform signed me out for no reason at all. When I try to publish a post, I had to resign in. When I sworn that I had typed the correct password, I was rejected. This went on for what seemed to be a lifetime. So finally, I decided to change my password. This was the easy part I told myself. After I hit forget password, my phone said to check my email for instruction for the next step. Okay, I did. I refreshed the email over and over again. I even rechecked my spam folders. I did not however receive the magical email. Now at this point I was freaking the hell out. I went back to enter the email in again for the one-thousandth time. Still, there was no magical email. As I flipped tables and doing everything a normal person would have done with malfunctioning technology, my Billy tried to help me. At this point I needed a nice cup of hot tea and a nice long walk, not really, just a TAFMP (Time Away From My Phone). So Billy helped me and even chatted up a couple of agents. Still, they couldn’t help me. After that, I was locked out of my account for good I thought. Sometime after that, things happened and I decided to do other writing such as my books. I did not know how long it would take for me to resurrect my blogs again. It wasn’t until a few days ago that I was able to figure out what had happened to my account.

I realized, or should I say that my wonderful Billy had realized that I had a complete different email account with an extra digit. It was to something else which I will not mention today. At that point, I shouted with joy and told Billy that it has to be my problem with Word press! We both burst with laughter and claimed our rediculousness.

So here I am. Back with more craziness.

I am very happy to be back with you all. I will be posting regularly again.

Thank you for reading my sweet friends. Please do subscribe with your emails below so that you will not miss another of my blogs. Make sure to leave a like and a comment telling me again how ridiculous I was.

Happy Reading

Jamie Lyn

Wedding Venue Tour

  Last week, Billy and I had the opportunity to tour a place for our wedding. It was a gorgeous place. It was an ancient mansion that took place in the 1700 and 1800s. My wonderful future Mother in law came along with Billy and I which I was so grateful for. When the tour guide explained everything to us inside of the mansion, the three of us agreed that it was a little small for our type of wedding. The inside was so fancy and pretty, but it could only seat up to eighty people. The tour guide was so nice and pleasant to work with. As she showed us the outside view which was surrounded by woods and a beautiful botanical garden approximately 50 feet from the mansion house. The tour guide also said that we could rent tents which can seat up to 150 people. She meant well, but we needed our guests to be together in one room. As Billy and I strolled around the outside, Billy put his arms around my waste and he planted a few kisses on my lips. This memory will forever last, because there is absolutely no one that I would rather spend the rest of my life with than my Billy. That day was one of my most joyous day in my life. Later, the three of us took pictures to capture the memory of the place even though we know that this place will not work out. Near the end of our tour, I leaned up to Billy and said that I would love to throw huge parties here in our future. Billy smiled and said that it was an amazing idea, especially when we get rich one day from doing what we do. I squeezed his hand tightly and thanked the young lady who had assisted us and walked to our car as we planned our next destination to tour.  If any of you have any questions about wedding venues in Cincinnati Ohio, feel free to ask me. I will give you any information to my knowledge, such as the price, locations, and anything else you would like to know.

  I hope that you enjoyed reading this. If so, be sure to leave a Like below.

  Happy reading my friends

  Jamie Lyn

Oh What A Day

  As I squeeze my husband Billy’s hand with every nerve I can possibly manage. He sits next to me on the train, as I try my very best to find every memory and photos from my childhood. I have never done anything quite this impossible. The pressure is almost unbearable to hold. Just as I thought my head was about to explode, my sweet dear husband kisses me on my cheek and says, “Love? We are here”. At his very words, my heart gives the world’s biggest flutter with excitement knowing that there is no turning back. It has been a little over two decades which I have grown so much. Not long ago, I was considered legally blind, but with the current technology and my mindset, my vision in my left eye has completely restored itself. The world seemed very confusing at first, but with the help of my close friends and family, my mind has finally allow me to view the world as the best as my eyes would accept. Now, as the train neared the station, I see oceans of people walking in every direction you can imagine. I have never seen so many people looking so similar as myself. Back in the US, I did not see nearly this many Chinese people. Now that my husband and I have finally arrived here in China, I have never been so anxious. I quickly stood before the train came to a full stop, and grabbed our luggage and took my husband’s arms and headed towards the train exit. My heart can no longer contain itself as I squeezed through bags and between people. When a young teen Chinese boy was throwing a fit in the center of the aisle, I slowed down and waited for his beautiful young Asian mother pulled him to his feet. She smiled apologetically to me and my husband. I told her that it was no worries and compliments on her gorgeous long shining hair. She immediately smiles back and points to my tall and handsome American husband. In Chinese, she asked if we were there on a tour. When I told her that we were visiting and this was my hometown, she extended her hand to shake mine and Billy’s. The lady started walking forward and Billy and I followed behind her and her son who keeps looking over his shoulders and smiles the biggest smile he could possibly show. I smile back and his mother urged him on. Once we got on to the station landing, the lady handed me a contact card. It looked like a business card. I thank her and start looking for signs of recognition of the station. She gently runs her fingers through my hair and disappeared into the busy crowd. When I looked back, she was already swallowed up by the masses of people hurrying towards the exit. As people walked close to our personal space, I squeezed through and found a pillar which we waited for our dear friend who offered to come along to be our translator since I have long forgotten my hometown dialect. Though I was able to speak Mandarin, not everyone from my town would know how to speak it. May was so excited when she heard that we were going back to China and she said that she would love to be our translator. No more than ten minutes later, May steps out from the crowd and spotted us and started walking to us. As May hugs me and asks us if we had enjoyed our travels. I told her that we have had a blast, she gives a genuine smile which showed how white her teeth were. As May and Billy carries on a conversation about the train ride, I can not help but look at all of the stands of shops that took place in the perimeter of the station. I tried to recall my memories of this train station as a young child, nothing looked the same. This place is so modern to the point where it kind of scares me. Would I recognize anything here from my childhood in this new town? This station is more open then I remember. It also has stairs on each end of the station. When the three of us ascended the stairs exiting the station, I asked May if she has ever been here. “I come here only twice”. I smile. “I comed here last summer to visit friend”. Even though May has English grammar issues, she speaks pretty well for someone who has never left this country. “Wow, that’s great” Billy said. I told her that everything that I see so far, looks nothing like my memories. She grins, “Really, that’s too crazy, everything is not the same” she said as she giggles. “Definitely” I say. “Babe, we’ll do great and will figure it all out” my husband says as he squeezes my waste. “Thank you love” I say as I plant a kiss on his lips. I noticed that a small crowd walking towards the train station stopped and looked as if they have never seen any couples kiss. They have probably never seen an Asian woman kissing a white man. May smiled and clapped a couple of times and said, “Awww, too cute”! I laughed waved the crowd on. I soon started talking and sharing what the view was like with Billy and described everything from small bricked houses in the distance and the view of a beautiful lake off to the right. When I started describing the lake, I grew excited, because I remember this specific lake after all. Billy and May both said, “See, you got this”. I smiled and kept walking. In my mind, I knew that the woman who gave birth to me will not be in this town. She was gone a long ago. My father though, he could or could not be here still. He is either passed away from old age, or he might be settled down somewhere else with another woman possibly. As for my mother, I have no clue where she could possibly be. All I know is that she is not too old, maybe in her late thirties or early forties. I will never know for sure for now. The small school near my house was still there, but it was much bigger now. I have a feeling that someone would recognize me. Maybe an old neighbor. Maybe a childhood friend. Even a relative might still be in town. As we continued towards my first house, my heart pounded so hard and fast that it might as well have just jumped out of my throat. This feeling of certainty yet unknown is something that I have ever experienced.
  Thank you for reading friends. As you guys might know, this was just a dream glimpse into my future. I have a feeling that something similar would go down like this. As for my vision, I believe that I will see better than now. Yes, I said that my vision was full, but I think with the help of technology and my own mind can make it possible. Again, thank you friends for being patient with me as I took a break from here.
  Lastly, I’m working as fast as I can to finish my current book, so that I can get it published as soon as possible.

  Happy Reading
  Jamie Lyn

A Better Transportation System For People Who Is not Able to Drive Physically

  Hey everyone, it has been a while. I hope all of you are doing fantastic.  Some of you might be asking what the title is about. Well, as many of you might know, that I am visually impaired. It means that I do not drive, never have, and probably will not be for a while. Billy is also blind, so he is not able to drive either. So, if we want to go out somewhere, we would ask a family or friend to take us somewhere. Another way to go out, we take Uber and Lyft. However, the rides starts adding up the more we go out. Do to the fact that we are super active and love going out on the town, we are practically broke before we know it. I would never change anything in the world to not have this independence and this amazing future ahead with my love. If you still don’t quite understand, let me to explain more. Imagine that you have to go to the store to pick up that milk for your delicious mac and cheese. So you jump in your car, and a big screen comes on as you start up your car saying that you have to insert 6 dollars. So you scramble your car for 6 dollars cash. Once you get to the store, your transactions are all as expected. Lets say that the milk was around 2 dollars which is completely fine. Now, your car refuses to start until you feed the metal beast 6 more dollars. Finally, you only wanted a darn jug of milk which now cost you almost 15 dollars. Can you say that you would be broke pretty soon?

  There are plenty of examples that I can give. The bottom line is that, there needs to be a better system for anyone who is physically not able to drive a vehicle. Comment below if you have any other suggestions. Anything would be greatly appreciated. In the meantime, we are trying to work with companies to make this system more accessible.

  Be sure to follow me on here and stay close for more other blogs.

  With love

  Jamie Lyn

A Child Like Mentality 

  Hi to all of my readers old and new. Speaking of new, I would like to welcome those who have recently joined the team. I’m so glad that you have chose to stay here and read my blogs. I can only hope that you will find a special interest in all of this.As I contemplated on what to write next, a great idea developed. As many of you know that I have been here and there, and have not been on here as much as I like. The last week have been extremely busy and full of fun. Currently, Billy’s nieces nephews have been visiting and consumed much of my time writing. Though they are some of the cutest little people I know, they have helped me see a lot of different ideas. The more the children interacted with me the more I thought back to hundreds of other children I have known. I came to the conclusion that many today adults tend to lose their child like joy and simplistic way of life views and situations. For myself, I can say that I have always clung to the simple ways of a child’s mentally. Let me clarify, what I mean by saying a child mentality such as the simple things that bring me joy and happiness. Now, I could have easily lost my way in the midst of my challenging past and could have became a mundane average adult. A person who is extremely serious and let others influence my life in a negative way. Instead, I always chose to be grateful, joyful, and creative. Allow me to give some examples. When I was young and had literally nothing, I was happy that I had a river and lakes in my town that I could play and swim in. Before I came to the USA, I did not let angry teenagers effect my simple ways of living nor did I allow them to take away my fun that I had at a boarding school. When family and home life became difficult and challenging, I was grateful for my friends and things as simple as a bed to sleep on at night. The list just goes on and on. The truth is that some of us lose sight of our beginning foundations. We forget that not everything has to be a perfection. We get super worked up about something that is out of our control. Some say that a child before a legal adult age can only enjoy things that are simple and fun without responsibilities. I disagree with those type of thinking. The truth is that, if you are truly happy and free, you should not let anything tie down in a way that a person is forced to be those ways. Yes, we all have responsibilities, but it does not mean that responsibilities determine our values or outcome. Next time before you put on that law-school suit or mundane personality, think about how it will wear you out. Think about yourself, it does not matter what anyone else think of you. Loosen up and enjoy life for what it is. You only have so much time to be you. Make it a child like mind-set.

  Thank you for reading. You are a true friend. Until next time, I hope you will have a blast day and do not forget to strip down those crusty old shell that made you what you are today. Seriously, I hope you will have a fantastic day! Go out and crush it.

  Jamie Lyn

An Early Memory of the Train

  Transportation has advanced greatly since I was a child. The first ten years of my life, I grew up in Xiangtan China, the hometown of a well known Chairman Mao Zedong. I did not learn this until after I had left the country. The main form of transportation for my family and I was by train. Only wealthy families owned pickups, three wheeled cars, and other types of vehicles. Due to the low class my family were, we did not have the luxury of a family car or bikes. As a young girl, my father would take me to visit relatives some distance away in the same town by train. Other times, if we visit family close by, we would walk the trip. Personally, I preferred traveling by rail. This way, I got to meet people from all over the place. Nevertheless, the meals on board tasted amazing. One of my favorite things to order was a carton full of rice and stir fried vegetables. I remember the cart lady who never failed to keep a smile on her face as she passed each cabin while offering food to those who were boarding the train. There is nothing better than riding a train. As my father and I waited patiently to arrive at our next destination, I would look out the window to see friends greeting each other to children pleading their parents to get on the train. I would observe all the faces passing by with expressions of joy, laughter, and even sadness. I have always admired those who traveled with a big family. As the train charged on away from the people, the only view was farmland and brick houses that were both ancient and new. Whenever I hear a train passing through nearby carrying cargo, it would remind me of my childhood. For the sound of the railroad brings back so many memories that I wish I could relive one more time.

Our Love Story

  Hi readers! Today, I thought I share with you guys on how Billy and I met! As many of you know, we are engaged and have been for a few months now. Our story has been an extremely long journey and a difficult one at first. Let me start at April 2015, my Spring semester right before summer break. As I sat at home back in California, I scrolled through my email as I distracted myself from homework and final studies. I came across an email from twitter. In the subject, it asked me to check out a new app that they had just released. I had no idea what made me open it, because I usually view it as junk mail and always ignored them. For some strange reason, I opened it and read the content. The twitter team explained that they had just launched a live-streaming app called Periscope. Near the bottom of the app, it provided a download link. As curious as I am, I went ahead and downloaded the app. At that time, I had absolutely what kind of things I was about to get in to. There, you might have guessed it, it has to do with Periscope. Yes, little did I know that I would meet my future husband through this live-stream app. I had no clue what live-stream really was, but I decided to download the app anyway hoping that it would work on my phone and that I would know what to do with it. At the time, Periscope was only able to be download on the IOS devices. Like every other app on the planet, you had to create an account. The option was to log on with a twitter account, go figure right? After I got my Periscope account created, I found that I was at complete lost. For some odd reason, I did not give up there. I went on twitter and composed a tweet with the hashtag Periscope and that I had no idea how to use the new app hoping that someone would see it. No more than a few hours, at Upyourperiscope replied to my tweet with the help link. I was so excited, but the link did not help. The help link did not explain how a blind and a voice over user could use it. I then replied to their tweet telling them my confusion, and they tagged another blind user from London to help me. This blind man knew how to work it and explained that it can be difficult, but there were ways to overcome the challenges. After I learned his tricks and things, I continued with the Periscope app. I was able to work it like a pro. I really fell in love with the app, because I was able to chat with people at a real time. There were people from all over the place scoping their daily activities. I have never seen anything like it, I was completely interested. As I got to know the app more and as the more I interacted with the broadcasters, I made many friends from all over the world. We all connected over twitter. As time went on, I started doing my own live-streams. I was able to share with the world who I was and continued making friends. One night, a loyal viewer had asked me if I knew another blind guy who does live-streams like me. I told him no and asked for the name. He told me that the other blind scoper’s name, “Clearsight”. He then said for me to search him up. I told him that I would, because it was amazing to see other blind people doing streams just like myself. As soon as I ended my stream and my fans said good byes, I immediately looked up Clearsight. I found a matching person and followed. To my surprise, Clearsight did a tons of streams, so I joined. Clearsight seemed super happy and had more fans than myself. I introduced myself and shared that I was blind as well. I told him that he did things different than me. He was excited that I joined his scope. I just innocently chatted with him and his fans. I expressed that I was a new scoper and that I had difficulties streaming. To my surprise, he said that he would invite me to a private scope and would show me how he did it. I was very grateful. After Clearsight AKA Billy ended his stream, I got an invite to join him. After I asked all of the questions that I needed, we both went on our own ways. A few days later, Billy joined my scope when I went live. At the time, I just viewed him as any other viewers. Through periscope, I was able to let my true feelings and personality with the world. Due to the complicated home life, my only other outlet was when I was away at school. I did live-streams almost everyday in positive ways by giving encouragement. Other times, I would teach my audience how to speak Chinese. For a while, Billy and I would join each other’s streams whenever we go live. Soon, we added each other on twitter which aloud us to send personal messages. At the time, I did not know that I would be talking to this guy everyday. As finals approached, I was able to keep my sanity by watching periscopes and talking to Billy. Sometime into our chatting, I asked Billy if he knew my nationality. He had no idea, so he guessed some kind of American. After I told him that I was Asian, he was very surprised in a good way. He told me that I had no accent. I was very pleased at his complement. Not much while later, Billy offered his digits and asked if I would text him. I told him of course I would. When my birthday came, he gave me an album and sent me a bunch of chocolates. When I explained to my parents about him, they freaked out and said that it was not acceptable. Even though I showed them when Billy went live and showed proof that he wasn’t a creep faking their age or anything. After sometime, my family started disproving of Billy talking to me. Soon, Billy expressed his feelings for me after we have talked practically everyday. He asked to be my boyfriend. As much as I like Billy, I wanted my parent’s approval which they rejected. There are more parts to this story, but I will save that for another time. To cut to the chase, the more Billy and I talked, the more we bonded. Some may say that we are crazy, because we knew that we were meant to be together. Though we have faced challenges from my side of family, we continued talking and messaging. Despite the disagreements and arguments, I can honestly say that it brought us even closer than ever before. Skipping ahead to December 7 months later, Billy helped me fly to Ohio to meet him and his family. Now, almost 2 years later, we have been engaged for 3 months. Billy is the man of my dreams and I can’t imagine life without him.  I just realized that I have been writing forever and I am absolutely tired. Thank you friends for hanging with me to this point. I will catch you again.

  Much love my friends

  Jamie Lyn

In To The Out

  Before I start, I would like to give a huge thanks to all of my new followers. You guys are extremely supportive of my blog. Writing blogs is one of my favorite hobbies and passions. I really appreciate all of you.  Some of you might have been wondering where on earth I have gone. It has been a busy week. Not to worry, I have a story to share with you guys. As many of you may or may not know, but I love nature. For the past few nights, my fiancee Billy and I have been enjoying our evenings outside. It has been absolutely amazing! The weather in the day time has been a bit warm. By the time evening comes, everything is cooled down. Not only the temperature decreases, all of the night creatures come out to play. Billy and I love going outside before the sun sets completely, especially when the birds are feeding. As we pull out our folding chairs and just sit back enjoying each other’s company while listening to birds. Nature has a way of making me feel super relaxed. Tonight, we did not get outside until after dark, it was wonderful nevertheless. As usual, Billy would brew himself a nice cup of coffee and puts some work as I pull out my braille note machine to write up blogs. Since I don’t usually drink coffee, I got myself a bottle of cold water and got started on this blog. Everything from the wind blown leafs to the chirping crickets to the swishing sounds of the brushes in the distance calms me and allows me to focus on my writing. As I scrambled my head for anything to write, I reached over and took a coconut butter cracker with sugar sprinkles on top which we got earlier today from the grocery store. Though many ideas for my future book came to my mind, I decided to share and update you guys as my awesome readers of where I have been.

  Even though I don’t have any other interesting things to share tonight like scary stories or romance, I can promise that I have something amazing in stored for you guys. For now, I am going to catch up on some sleep and will return tomorrow for more content! Again, I am really grateful for all of my readers out there.

  Much love and happy reading

  Jamie Lyn

Our Heartbeat

  This is my first poem on here. This is dedicated to my beloved Fianc√©! I love you so much!
  With every breath I take,

  You are my resting place,

  Everyday your hands is what I shall forever take,

  When I am confused or have any doubt,

  I know that I can always look up into your perfectly loving face.

  Every breath I take,

  All the things they say,

  Our love is too fake,

  Yet we continue to prove them wrong everyday.

  The only thing that matters in the world is our story,

  If they dare to look closer,

  They can and will witness our memory,

  Oh, all the places you show me,

  I can’t help but notice all of the days ahead that’s getting more clearer,

  With each kiss to every greenest field we stay,

  With my lover by my side,

  Only you can truly make me feel free,

  When I’m with you,

  The surroundings stop and stare at us,

  As you hold me tightly in your welcoming arms,

  Everything from the current of the river to the rocks that we stand on,

  Seem to be still and dare not to disturb us,

  With each kiss,

  Our hearts beating together is all I hear,

  Even the birds become more quiet and start whispering,

  And I can only know that this moment is true.

  With every big and small pebble we cast into the roaring current,

  The forest of trees seem to hold their breaths,

  Watching us from all angles of the woods,

  Before they know it,

  Our laughter fill the echoing nearby mountainside.

  When I look up,

  The sky filled of stars stares back,

  Illuminating the field where we lay,

  The view of the tall meadows to trees to the flower and grass all around,

  With every breath I take with you,

  My mind and soul becomes refreshed,

  In your arms,

  Is where I will stay.